Just some kid from the Chicago suburbs that moved to the southwest, went to law school, and ended up confronted with shifting ideals. My thoughts...boring and unedited.

Saturday, December 31, 2005

you're damn right i got the blues...

if you aren't already a fan of the blues...it is time to start. there is just something about the music that cuts down to your soul...even if you are a little white suburban kid like myself. no matter the mood you are in, the blues will lift you, will speak for you, will make you want to dance, and will make you shout. just like pfunk...it not only moves, it can remove.

good ol' electric guitar chicago blues...i miss it. if a broken heart, a heart full of pain and anger and hurt, a heart heavy with life and loss, a heart so in love, a heart crying at the moon...if that heart could sing, it would sound like muddy or buddy's guitar. the kind of guitar that makes you squint your eyes, furrow your brow, and nod in agreement with each anguished squeel...that's the blues.

a music and a lyric so simple, yet it speaks for everyone...always leaves you thinking "they knew exactly what i was feeling"...the blues, it's a unique experience...it's what every other type of music wishes it could be...

if you don't know the blues, go out and get you some buddy guy or muddy waters or hooker or howlin wolf or bb...or hell, drop me a line and i will send you some.

it's almost a new year...i normally don't do resolutions, but this year i have one. forget the diet (i failed) or exercise (i failed)...i'm no longer going to cling to my childhood vision of who i thought i would be...i'm going to do you right this time...maybe this year will hold something better than the last...

it's your time right now...i got a feeling it's going to be my time afterwhile

Friday, December 30, 2005

our past ain't lost...

i awoke this morning and realized i had some things figured all wrong. problem is, i was happier before i knew...i was happier that moment before i opened my eyes..i was happier not knowing the kind of selfish jackass i can be. now i miss my ignorance...these last few months have been hell.

three years ago a boy wrecked his life, three years ago on a warm chicago night. said not a word on a night in the club 'til closing time...as i was headed for the door said "you comin' or what? slip your hand in mine."

took me to the place i said "i'm in love with somebody, and i cannot play"...said "that's the way it goes honey. between you and me and her, there's been many, many times our paths crossed...our past ain't lost, if anything it's deeper and deeper with me."

eight months ago you call my phone, you say "get your ass down here so we can talk"...three years ago i would've run every mile...but i called you in the morning and said "maybe this ain't the right thing to do"...and i spent the afternoon in tears.

three years ago a boy wrecked your life, three years ago on a hot chicago night...our paths cross again and again, there's only one thing that goes unsaid...maybe you were the one i should've holded on to, you were the one i should have held to...i've been through hell too.

three years ago a boy wrecks his life, three years ago on a warm chicago night.

Thursday, December 29, 2005

tattoos, snow and attorneys - more useless crap...

i was thinking of getting a tattoo, only i am not a tattoo guy, so i have no idea where or of what. one of my friends from way back got a tattoo of the symbol for pi because he was a dork. always thought that might be the best tattoo ever. suppose i could get the breck symbol...put something on my ass...only then i would be accused of being too feminine by some people. does anyone have any ideas? something tasteful please...

it snowed at taos...an inch. wow. but there should be some big snows next week...guess ullr finally got word that we are dying down here while colorado basks in the most bountiful snowfall on record. i have only one request oh great ullr...hurry the fuck up. skiing is the only thing i have to enjoy about this hellhole, so make it happen.

i was finally getting my car un-rezed out (it's ok...some of my best friends are indian, excuse me, native american...hell, my roommate is...she's the one that told me my car was rezed out in the first place...which reminds me, is that spelled right?). didn't last too long. although i can finally see out of the windshield, with a new windshield and new tires and working brakes i thought the car was missing something. so i backed into a fire hydrant and put a big hole in the bumper (on the passenger side too, because there was no damage over there, it was uneven). now it is bolted on and ducktaped closed...good shit. maybe i'm losing my cracker roots and sliding down towards white trash. and yes, there is a difference.

one of my closest friends is in ireland, my best friend is in peru...i am jealous. maybe it is just the horror of living in the southwest too long, but i've begun to consider leaving the country...never thought i would get to that point.

there are entirely too many attorneys in this country...but not enough working at the public defender's office. maybe we could begin a shift...seeing as how every time some place "cracks down on crime" they inevitably forget about the constitutional requirements that go along with that...things like effective representation, right to speedy trial, the stuff the press likes to refer to as "technicalities"...of course if the "technicality" involved is a different constitutional right, like say freedom of speech...they go fuckin crazy.

but my point is...stop suing damnit. let it go...things happen, it doesnt mean you need to be heard or need to be paid. someone is suing the city of las cruces because there is a cross in it's sign...because that makes a big difference in people's lives...if you are going to waste time and taxpayer money...make it worth it, fight for something important...please. and to members of the bar...stop taking these bullshit cases.

i've been considering a move to private investigator...seems like it could be a fun job...seems defense attorneys go that route, although not sure i want to do anything that may require me to be armed.

is it too late to save this country? is it too late to take back washington from the greedy fuckups that have infested the place? is it too late to right the ship before it goes down like all the others before? do i need to start wishing i was chinese? or maybe life will be better as just another failed superpower...too bad the transition will be in my lifetime. wish i could've made it through the good days...although i won't complain seeing as how most of the rest of the world lives.

the damn sun is out again...if anyone has pictures of a nice grey winter sky...i would appreciate a copy.

when you need directions then i'll be the guide...

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

why you should shop at cdbaby.com...

i recently purchased a cd from cdbaby.com...and i want to share this wonderful experience with the world. in a dreary sun-filled-complete-lack-of-real-winter world known as the southwest the notice they sent me made me smile...something rarely accomplished these days. here is that notice...

"Your CD has been gently taken from our CD Baby shelves with sterilized contamination-free gloves and placed onto a satin pillow.A team of 50 employees inspected your CD and polished it to make sure it was in the best possible condition before mailing.

Our packing specialist from Japan lit a candle and a hush fell over the crowd as he put your CD into the finest gold-lined box that money can buy.

We all had a wonderful celebration afterwards and the whole party marched down the street to the post office where the entire town of Portland waved 'Bon Voyage!' to your package, on its way to you, in our private CD Baby jet on this day, Wednesday, December 28th.

I hope you had a wonderful time shopping at CD Baby. We sure did. Your picture is on our wall as 'Customer of the Year'. We're all exhausted but can't wait for you to come back to CDBABY.COM!!"

that alone was enough to ensure my continued business...thank you cdbaby.com, for remembering what real service is.

gotta take something to make yourself feel good...something ain't me...

another round of insomnia

so much i wish my fingers would let me say...so much i wish my head didn't stop my heart from blurting out...so much love i want to give and share...so much trust i try so hard to give...so much emptiness in my soul...so much anger...so much confusion...so much regret...so much attempting to understand...so much unrealized hope...so much blame...so much shame...

such a lack of laughter...such a lack of smiles...such a lack of patience...such an aching at my core...

so many jumbled emotions...so many jumbled thoughts...so many kisses left on my lips...so many "i love you"s left on my tongue...so many gentle touches left on my fingertips...so many "you are all i ever want and need" looks still in my eyes...so many squeezes left in my arms...so many dreams left in my heart...

so much room left in the subaru...so much room left in my closet...so much room left in my bed...so much room left in my life...so much room left in my heart...

i will love this love forever...

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

consumerism, cheating spouses, the FDR connection, and Nixon...

well, another christmas came and went, and along with it another disgusting display of american over-the-top consumerism. although i hear this year was not as throw-money-at-anything-and-everything as past years. retailers are counting on the after christmas sales to pick them up a bit. suppose that is what happens when you allow the stock market to skyrocket over decades while 99 percent of the population watches their spending power decline at the same time. guess those filthy rich folks aren't picking up the slack so much...or investing in this country for that matter. but then, who really needs to rebuild the infrastructure and manufacturing and farming in this country when you can exploit overseas folks for it. i would say we will all be dead when it bites us in the ass anyways...but i'm putting my money on it happening before i hit retirement age...if i make it that long...

so as i was in a wonderful mood and consuming good beer (not even miller lite...like real beer...i know, shocking) i actually turned the tv on (mostly because reading real books while you are intoxicated is much tougher than i remember studying intoxicated being). house was on...first time i watched it. some lady came down with african sleeping sickness which she caught from an affair. her husband (dracula from blade 3) said part of him did not want her to get better, because it would mean she was faithful...and she lied to the doctors and said she never had an affair, knowing she might die because of it. well, eventually she got better and he immediately left her. made me even more depressed...and curious as to what i would do in that situation. can't say i wouldn't take my chances with death...but i'm fairly certain i would want my wife to get better. i'm with dracula though, i'd be out the door...but i'd probably wait until she was atleast out of the hospital bed. but then maybe i wouldn't...people fuck up...good people...the kind of people you would never expect it from...we all have, yet we all act like we're the only ones this ever happened to, and that are partner's the only one that has ever done it...even though i would bet it would be hard to hurt someone if only that hadn't got to throw the rocks...

i've begun to think of GW as the second coming of FDR. only instead of expanding the power of the executive to brand new heights to lift the common man out of the mess that over-speculation and greed driven rich assholes placed him in (yes, it is sexist to only use masculine terms there...but they are shorter, and i am lazy...so i apologize to the women out there) GW has decided to expand the power in the name of "the man"...so much for conservativism...unless it now means "it makes me feel big and lets me do things i shouldnt"...gotta hand it to the guy though, he sure knows how to take advantage of a situation.

the whole mess makes me wish Nixon hadn't been caught...i've grown a new found respect for that man and what his role in american history could have been. unfortunately, he fucked it up, and we've been stuck with money-grubbing assholes ever since.

this is why i'm lying when i say i don't love you no more...

Monday, December 26, 2005

I WIN

i finally got to do some skiing this weekend. just doesnt bring the kind of complete release it used to...except for that winding run through the trees (breck's version of rubezal). oh well...fuck this town anyways.

yes, i am in a great mood today. that's what beer is for.

listen, it don't cost much...i owe you nothing...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

kaboom: a mind dump...

the gays are excited in england what with marriage and all. elton john is getting hitched...i'm waiting for the world to end...or at least for family life in england to plummet and the countryside become full of rampant, godless homesexuality. 20 bucks says it doesn't happen...

the afghanis learned quickly...and well. corruption and a failure to get work done. welcome to western civilization folks.

so did the iraqis...questionable election results...fake ballots crossing the border. now you're getting the hang of it...

sometimes i wish that all the people that have it out for criminal defense attorneys would be forced to go without one when the five oh comes to their door. you want to know how i can do this and sleep at night? very easily...every day i protect someone's rights and do my part to ensure that the government stays as honest as possible...nobody's friend until they get caught drinking and driving or any of the other illegal things everyone inevitably does, suddenly they don't want to stop talking to you. people make mistakes...

someone i know recently started some missionary-type support work at the local juvenile detention center after getting some knowledge of the kids inside. kudos to him...when most of society writes these kids off and condemns them to a life bouncing between broken, unsupportive homes, prison and the street, he is trying to give them some hope and guidance. regardless of what you think of religion...it can still do good.

president bush ok'd wiretaps without using the secretive court that usually approves such sneaky things. anyone really think this is the first administration to do it? or just the first to come clean with it? a judge on the court quit because of it...apparently was worried it would tarnish the reputation of the court...cuz that secretive, never open, always granting court had a great reputation.

my vindictive side has surfaced...finding my inner-asshole. wonderful.

the damn sun won't go away, the snow won't come. who would've thought that so much sunshine and warm weather could make a person so miserable. although i suppose i shouldn't blame it all on locale...but this town is pressing too hard.

wishing my building was taller today...but i'm only on the second floor.

i still don't find it easy...to all my friends i love...goodbye

Friday, December 16, 2005

can't hardly wait: more random thoughts...

i love martin chavez...so what if he is trying to bring back the days of political bosses...so what if he does this dirty...what politician doesn't? his next big thing on the agenda (after some real public transit) is making albuquerque a no-kill city. in an effort to stop the needless slaughter of 16,000 animals a year in city shelters because some assholes won't spay or nueter their pets...mayor marty is proposing making it law. not only will he make it law that you must fix your pets...but he wants to send a bus around to do it for free if you can't afford it. yes he's a crook...but he's our crook.

for all those bill clinton lovers out there (especially those so fond of "it's the economy stupid")...you should grab some of kevin phillips books (namely wealth and democracy). if you haven't figured it out by now...those eight years really didnt help any of us (unless you count the very top...you know the ones that everyone is so angry with gw about helping...yeah, well, every president of the last three decades has). it's kind of interesting to watch from the inside as the world's great economic superpower desperately clings to it's pedestal as it crumbles away. i'm making a prediction...by 2016 a third party will be a serious player on the national scene...or should i say a second party...

are you ready for a shock? the president authorized the nsa to spy on folks inside the country without using the court's...wiretaps and all. yeah...i know...your jaw dropped at the audacity of it. who would have imagined that an american president would do such a thing. is anyone else getting tired of "news" stories that are meant to shock and awe that are old news to anyone with a tv set or a paranoid conspiracy complex? and that bothers me...that i get annoyed with reporting stuff like this. suppose i should be glad the press is finally reporting things...but is this stuff really new? somehow i doubt it...

i wish people in this country would vote like iraqis...estimates of almost a 3/4 turnout came out...this in the face of random explosions, beheadings and other fun stuff. and in this country, where we have the privilege all the damn time...we can't get half the voters off their asses if the weather is bad. which explains why we keep getting these bozos in office.

which brings me to another point...the supreme court got it wrong...handing billions of dollars to politicians for favors in the future is not protected political speech. cap it. bring politics back to the people that deserve it, the people that can actually do the job...not the most charismatic puppet of insanely wealthy folks and their special interest groups...

i'll be there in an hour, take half a month on foot. water in the old scummy watering tower, cast a lonely voice if i could. i'll be sad in heaven, you won't find me there...there jesus rides beside me, he never buys and he smokes. hurry up, hurry up, ain't you had enough of this stuff? ashtray floors, dirty clothes and filthy jokes. i'll be sad in heaven if i don't find a hole in the gate...climbing on top of this scummy watering tower screaming i can't hardly wait...til it's over.

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

teaching how to torture, the toy and child brides...

turns out the new iraqi "government" has been busy utlizing tactics honed by the former president. just when you were starting to feel good about progress in iraq, what with elections and all (and only a few candidates being gunned down) here comes another torture scandal. only this time it is the police and military which the united states and coalition (who is left in the coalition anyhow?) taught everything they know. is anyone really surprised that age-old police tactics continue to be used in a place where they are all anybody has ever known?

here's the amusing part...to put a stop to this, the united states military is going to be inspecting detainment facilities throughout iraq. couple years ago this might have worked...somehow today i doubt this will make much of the rest of the world feel any better about what may or may not be going on behind those doors. maybe we can at least teach them how to do it right and keep it under wraps...although we aren't very good at that anymore. or maybe this would be a really good time for the gop to start listening to mccain instead of trying to rewrite the rules (literally)...

richard pryor died last week. as a white suburban kid my first introduction to pryor was in the film the toy. later i was introduced to his comedy by a teacher...at which point i finally got a lot of the toy that went over my ignorant head when i was younger. it may not seem like such a big deal now, and i was too young to know then (if i was even born yet), but social and racial commentary through comedy took some balls. so when you crack open that beer/wine/liquor/colt 45 tonight, pour a little on the curb for one hell of a funny man...

apparently some kid in nebraska plead guilty to sexual assault of a minor for impregnating his girlfriend. they are married now. problem is they started dating when he was 20 and she was 12. disgusting yes...but you know what the really frightening part is...they got married with her parents blessing when she was 13. wow. not sure which is worse, a 20 year old man that can't relate to a girl unless she is in middle school...or parents who would let this guy then marry their daughter instead of giving him a good old fashioned ass-whooping for being a pervert.

i was in love with the place in my mind...

Tuesday, December 13, 2005

space travel, racial "tension", tookie and bloody hands...

space travel is coming to new mexico compliments of virgin nutjob richard branson. what a wonderful way to use his fortune...sending other insanely rich nutjobs into space. seems virgin plans to build a tourist space port in southern new mexico...near truth or consequences (and for those of you not from here...yes, the town is named after the bad tv show). for only $200,000 you can come to new mexico and head for outerspace. i suggest you do so...this state needs your money, and needs it bad. so come spend...a lot.

another country has exploded into race riots after building "tension" for years between crackers and their mideastern/muslim friends (and by "tension" i mean bigoted hatred...it's the polite way to say it). this time it is australia, where thousands of neofascist assholes got it started before the inevitable, and understandable reply set a few days of rioting in action. ignorance breeds ignorance...and then comes the joyful pointless hatred and blame...and then you get race riots. lots of other folks point a finger at the united states for it's history of poor race relations...some of those countries need to turn that finger around. not that we are by any means beyond such stupidity...

crips founder tookie was executed in california early this morning. yet another example of the idiocy of capital punishment in this day and age. this man helped kick off the gang craze, true...but do we really think that hopeless inner-city youth, marginalized and beat down wouldn't eventually take to violent crime in an organized way? and are we really such a vengeful people that we need to kill folks, who represent no threat to our communities anymore, and who actually are working their asses off to turn kids away from the poor choices they themselves made? so what has california accomplished? are the streets any safer this afternoon then they were yesterday afternoon? not so much...there is just one less voice out there speaking against gang life. good job buddy...you did it.

there are insurgent groups in iraq wanting to get involved with the political process and tentatively reaching out to the united states to talk and work something out. these are the folks that are actually fighting for their country...not the over-zealous crazies bent on decapitation. our government is having a dilemna in talking with them though...seems we need to make sure we don't talk to anyone "with blood on their hands"...but this makes me wonder something, if our officials don't talk to anyone with blood on their hands...wouldn't they basically just be walking around washington and other political centers around the world completely silent, maybe managing the frat boy nod hello to their fellow red-handed brethren. on second thought, maybe it isn't such a bad idea...

i get so tired of missing you...

Friday, December 09, 2005

winter storms, al sharpton, tax cuts and the US on it's way out...

winter has arrived...everywhere but the southwest. sure it is cold down here (atleast for albuquerque), but i want a good old fashioned, bone-chilling, snow blowing, instant frost bite type of winter. like what went down in chicago, a month's worth of snow overnight, temperatures rapidly dropping, planes skidding into neighborhood streets. now that is winter...take me home.

al sharpton is in advertising apparently...if you ask me the good reverend made a pact with the devil. i don't know if these commercials run anywhere but new mexico, but all i can say is wow...he must be hurting, because he sold out, with a capital "sold out"...al sharpton, defender of the little people, voice for the downtrodden, has become a spokesman for loanmax title loans...a leader in an industry designed to take advantage of people down on their luck, to legally rob the poor of their paychecks. and al sharpton is promoting this practice...in a state where payday loans have gotten out of control and are being investigated by the attorney general (all four feet of her). what happened to you al? is this your answer to jesse jackson's crusade to liberate multimillionaire crybaby t.o. from the oppressive life of being an insanely high paid athlete? sad...

in case you had hopes that maybe this country could right itself (although it is already decades too late)...the house steps in to save the day and extend tax cuts on dividends and capital gains. thank god for that. i was beginning to worry that when these ludicrous tax cuts expired we may again be able to get back to rebuilding this country, pulling back the reins on too much emphasis on capital and finance, close the gap between the disgustingly rich and the rest of us. won't be happening...filthy rich folks, who own a ridiculous portion of this country's wealth, will continue to get richer, corporations will continue to pay less and less taxes...and this country will continue it's slide from the top as the leading economic powerhouse.

my parent's were fortunate enough to not have to live through the great depression but be able to live through the hey day of this country, not 40-50 years past. once again a failure to study and learn from history will lead to a rapid decline for a global powerhouse...hell, it already is leading. the mistakes that the dutch and the british made before us have been repeated 10 fold...those glorious 90's that everyone was raving about, the strength of the economy then...turns out it was all a set up, the last great run by the insanely rich to lap the rest of the field, to stop building up american manufacturing and start looking ahead only to the next quarter. now it's over, by the time i hit retirement age this country will have become a lesson for china to ignore. oh well, was fun while it lasted...

the ones who love us best are the ones we'll lay to rest, and visit their graves on holidays at best...the ones who love us least are the ones we'll die to please...

Thursday, December 08, 2005

paying off student loans and gifts for a lover...

the supreme's sold us out...well, not all of us...just the ones that can't afford to be sold out...bet you are surprised. social security benefits can be taken to pay off old student loans. wonderful...lets take what little safety net some people have away because they wanted to educate themselves.

i know, i know...the government needs the money...gw says there are 7 billion in overdue student loans out there...and 33 billion total. how much was that tax cut again? what tiny percentage of raising taxes on the insanely wealthy would be needed to cover higher education for everyone? i'd be willing to bet you could throw on 5% capital gains taxes along with whatever disgusting incomes some of these folks earn and manage to pay for four years of college for everyone in this country. just a thought.

as i was checking my email today i noticed msn had a thing for 20 great gifts for him and her. did anyone else see this? was anyone else appalled by the choices for gifts and their blatant sexist attitude? back to diamonds and power tools i suppose...

i'm sorry to say that you don't know me, i'm sad in ways you never understood...

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

criminal justice, non-christmas cards, the cold, and the cubs...

the suit filed by a german man against the united states based on his detention and alleged torture at the hands of the cia a few years back highlights the problems with things like capital punishment and throwing human rights out the window...human error. people make mistakes, especially when in an intense and stressful job like hunting down evil-doers. it is inevitable, we are going to pick up innocent people in our worldwide manhunt, we are going to detain some whose only crime may be their name and country of origin. seems when we picked up the wrong german it took a few months of inhumane treatment before we realized that (oops) we had the wrong guy. so we dropped him off in albania, just to pour some salt on the wounds (which probably actually happened) we didn't even take him home...what the hell is he going to do in albania?

this is exactly why a culture allowing human rights abuses is a bad, bad idea. the cia isn't perfect, the fbi isn't perfect, the military isn't perfect...human error, it's inevitable. and if we allow our guys to do really bad shit, we are going to do it to some innocent people. just like we found out in recent years that when you allow government sanctioned killing of individuals convicted of crimes, the government is going to put plenty of innocent people to death...juries get it wrong too. if you don't care about innocent folks suffering in order to "protect" you from crime and terrorism...then how about the effect on our collective psyche when we find out that completely innocent people have been put to death or put through horrific ordeals in our name. it isn't a happy thought...

the religious has their collective panty in a bunch again...seems the bush's holiday greeting card failed to mention christmas. the balls on that man...doesn't he know that his role as the top public official in this country means he should promote a specific religious view...i mean...oh yea...nevermind...

it is finally getting cold down here in the southwest. it isn't the good cold though, not that nasty, biting, painful, feel it in your bones cold of the great lakes. god i miss that. piles of dirty snow along the roads, grey skies, wind so strong it will flip semitrailers, temperatures so low frostbite sets in within minutes...that is cold...that is good shit. i need to leave this town.

on a lighter/forget-about-the-horrible-things-that-matter note...my cubs are making their off season moves. sent florida (soon to be vegas) a few more pitchers that will come back to haunt us for a lead-off hitting center fielder even though we have one in our system that will do...but if we can hold off for only a couple more years we'll hit the century mark of futility...how grand a party that will be.

it takes fighting day and night to make such a good thing die...

Monday, December 05, 2005

the UN - where sexual innuendo gets you dismissed but genocide gets you promoted...

ah yes, that wonderfully backwards organization charged with bringing peace and human rights to the world is in the news again. it seems kofi annan (i still can't figure out why people are gun-ho about this guy) is going to dismiss carina perelli, the head of the elections agency, thanks to her misconduct while in office. seems she thought she was in city hall in chicago and had an inner circle of folks, who may or may not have been capable, that ran around using sexual innuendo and making unwanted advances. the appalling part is that ms. perelli just let all this happen, she created the climate of harassment. and since the UN has recently had some trouble with folks in high positions doing bad things (that whole selling out the iraqi people thing...involving none other than kofi's son) kofi isn't going to take it anymore. (although i wonder how quick he would be with a dismissal if he hadn't been embarrassed by the oil for food fiasco).

the thing that amuses me about all this is that kofi annan is looking to dismiss a woman for creating an environment of sexual harassment in her office. if my memory serves me correctly kofi annan managed the response to rwanda...in the process looking the other way and handcuffing the troops in the area so as to allow the needless and preventable slaughter of an entire country. did kofi get dismissed for incompetence and embarrassing the UN? no...he got promoted and became it's leader. so apparently ms. perelli just went about it the wrong way...see, if she had instead allowed the elections in iraq to become a complete joke, and maybe allowed her office to sit back and watch as a million people were slaughtered she might be getting promoted to be annan's right hand woman. instead, she made the mistake of grabassing in the office, and now she is going to be out of work. does this make anyone else scrunch up their face and say "waah"?

maybe it is time the UN got out of new york...got out of this country...it seems it is beginning to take after our system a little too much. soon the mafia will get control of it...although even the gotti boys couldn't do much worse.

if you knew that you would be alone, knowing right, being wrong...would you change?

Saturday, December 03, 2005

easy...

only save, try to find another way, i'm taking what i gave to you again. some new day i could understand your face, you could even hold my hand if you would like to. it came unexpected, i had to follow through and it's hard when you were working like you do.

it was easy when you were younger, you can put it back together, it was there if you ever wanted it...but you closed the door and said goodbye for good.

so this is a mistake, try to find a better way, you were never fond of anything i said. can we begin again? save it for another friend, i was happy in my life i won't pretend...everytime you were expecting to reach out and forgive this, i was hardened by the look upon your face.

it was easy when you were younger, you can put it back together, it was there if you wanted it...but you closed the door and said goodbye for good...

Friday, December 02, 2005

propaganda, killer governments, the big hurt, and one nosey principal...

congress has it's panties in a not again...and contrary to the apparent wishes of senator frist, it isn't over the mistreatment of millionaire crybaby terrell owens by his millionaire bosses...no, it's about the pentagon putting out propaganda in iraq with the help of such underhanded tricks like paying newspapers to publish stories they wrote and translated. is anyone surprised? is anyone seriously upset over this? buying space in newspapers and television spots? using propaganda as part of a war effort...yea...that is so unamerican. if we are trying to support freedom of the press as the west has it...shouldn't we be pushing for more stuff like this? and when was the last time anyone on any side failed to utilize propaganda when in war? but atleast they aren't talking about how the eagles won't let t.o. play for them or anyone else...suppose it is a step back in the right direction.

hope everyone is throwing a big party today to celebrate execution number 1,000 (officially) in this country since the death penalty was reinstated a few decades ago. proud, proud day. north carolina got the honors...beating out south carolina by a day. suppose it could be worse, singapore just executed a foreigner for trafficking herione...not for the usual fun-stuff that we think of associated with trafficking (you know, murders, rapes, the good old fashioned "death eligible" crimes)...just plain old trafficking of herione. are we headed that way? seems like the only way the death penalty will really work like it is supposed to is if you just kill everyone for everything. watch crime drop...we should try it...take a cue from singapore...public hangings for jaywalking.

frank thomas will be leaving the white sox...i hate the white sox, but i love baseball, and frank thomas is one of the greatest pure hitters to ever play the game. the wonderful thing about the big hurt...never associated with cheating, not even when his numbers dropped down to only really good and his bones started to crumble under his "padded" frame. chicago will miss you frank...

more evidence of why i tend not to trust/like school administrators...some principal in california got sued because he was such a prick that he called a girl's mom to disclose that her daughter was gay. this schmuck made this girl's life so much hell that she had to transfer...watching her grades slip (she had been a straight A student). at a time when children should be nurtured and encouraged to express their individuality and discover themselves this guy made it his business to ensure that this girl and her girlfriend were split. hell...they should have given her an award for having the courage to give assholes like this a big "fuck you and your ignorant views" by being open about her sexuality in one of the most unforgiving environments...high school. so to Charlene Nguon...stick it to the man. and to Ben Wolf, the overzealous nosey principal of Santiago High School(12342 Trask Ave., Garden Grove, CA 92843 in case you wanted to know where not to send your child) may you never be allowed to work with children again.

somebody's gonna have to answer...the time is coming soon...amidst all these questions and contradictions, there are some who seek the truth