Just some kid from the Chicago suburbs that moved to the southwest, went to law school, and ended up confronted with shifting ideals. My thoughts...boring and unedited.

Monday, October 24, 2005

does anybody want to take me home?

i miss camille...i miss myself...i miss chicago...i miss shannon...i miss beers with gill...i miss drives into the city to meet chris and sarah...i miss unfinished millenia park...i miss gray skies...i miss changing leaves...i miss free tuesdays at the art institute...i miss the lakefront...i miss the roar of the el...i miss buildings impossibly tall...i miss resting by the river...i miss the first sight of the city emerging from the dank recesses of the subway...i miss commuters...i miss listening to her spout about the architectural brilliance that is the city of chicago...i miss cramming dollars into the park and ride slots when you are only supposed to use coins...i miss walking up the ramp into wrigley field...i miss sprawl converging on downtown...i miss neverending construction...i miss real gridlock...i miss tollbooths...i miss free underground transfers walking past the one man band in the tunnel as you pick up your pace when you hear the rumble of the redline coming through the station on the other end...i miss lunches in the fall along the river...i miss having somewhere that was home...i miss having someone that was home.

i need to leave this "city" and go home...problem is i don't know where that is anymore...i think i have become one of those people that just can't settle down anywhere for too long...i am getting antsy.

i wish i could have it all sorted out again...i wish i could see the mountain town as my little slice of heaven...i wish i could have done it right...i wish i hadn't been so hardheaded...i wish i had been more open, to myself and others...i wish i had been more available...i wish i hadn't wasted so many opportunities...i wish i had somewhere to call home.

there's no blame...and here i rest where disappointment and regret collide, lying awake at night.

1 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

a good song by ryan adams.

i miss you too, paul.

so does chicago.

come home!

2:55 AM

 

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